**If you look for some motivational reading, don't bother to read this post.**

I don't know why I become so enthusiastic in updating my blog lately. It feels like a cure, like a friend who says those magic words "everything is gonna be alright". Because well, sometimes I doubt every decisions, every choices I made, why I'm standing here. And at times like those, nothing is alright.

Why does time fly so fast at weekends? It isn't fair. Tomorrow is Monday again, which is always a torture to me. I hate the thought of Monday, more than I hate the Monday itself. I know it's just for a few more months, but sometimes I feel like I can't even stand it for one more day. Haha. Just kidding. Or not. I will (try to) hold on.

Maybe this is just not my passion. I mean, all those things about middlewares and service oriented architectures and requirement gathering-analysis and design-implementation-unit testing-integration testing? They're like DSLR cameras or the father of Leticia Charlotte Agraciana Joseph (daughter of Sheila Marcia Joseph, in case you are not updated with infotainment lately :D). I don't mind learning things about them, but if you ask me, I'm not curious at all. I could not care less how I should adjust the focus, lenses and God knows what other components of a DSLR camera are, as long as I can take pictures with it.

So what is my passion then? I have no idea. I find Cornelia Funke's biography really interesting.

I love my work. I love writing books and telling stories so much that I could not imagine doing anything else. But it took me a very long time to figure out that this was what I wanted to do, let alone that I could actually do it well enough to make a living from it.

And she writes a lot of very good books, if you ask me. The Thief Lord is even listed under my Books That Changed My Life list.

So what's mine?

**to be continued because i don't want to make this post too long**